Hide and Seek

Today was great... we had a calm room in the morning and everyone was into the activities Megan and I had set up. :) What a blessing!

On the bus ride home I listened to this song and it was beautiful. It's dark at night when I go home and I felt I could slip into the music and just enter a different world, outside of work.



Imogen Heap - Hide And Seek





where are we?
what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to form
crop circles in the carpet
sinking feeling

spin me round again
and rub my eyes,
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first

oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines (oh, you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears (hearts)
they were here first

Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say?
Mmmm that it's just what we need
you decided this
whatcha say?
Mmmm what did she say?

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
speak no feeling no I don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs

(hide and seek)
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a (you don't care a) bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
oh no, you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit



Today though... there's a toddler, who I was with last year, who I love... and it's just so touching that she still loves me back. hehe She always finds me in the outdoor area when toddlers and preschoolers play together and is always excited that I'm in the toddler room in the mornings and afternoons when we come together again. I don't even deserve her affection, I hardly spend time with her in the grand scheme of things and pretty much all my old toddlers have forgotten me, but she hasn't. We were tight last year and I miss her still and so there are heaps of cuddles that get given still when I do see her, but really... I'm so unworthy of her affection. I know it sounds really lame... I think sometimes I'm developing (or already had :P) the mentality of a three year old, so that I get really involved in their lives. What they think and do and say really matter to me...

Anyway. Better head off... listen to the song, it's beautiful. It's kind of sad though, so don't take that into account. There are silver linings to all the dark clouds in my life - and more so.


Cathrine