Twenty-three, working full time in child care for KU, living in Sydney's North West and feeling right at home.
Born in November; Raised on her dad's record player and a CD player that she won at 11 through a [Retravision] colouring in competition. Loves: cellos, electric guitars, and pianos. Admires: Chopin, Paul Dempsey, Camille, Ella Fitzgerald, Regina Spektor, Edith Piaf, The Lucksmiths, Led Zeppelin, and Woody Herman.
I sing all the time. Music is my language... I'm always looking to expand my vocabulary. This blog is an outlet for my musical chatter.
Oh I like you so very much so much in fact I gotta wake you up It's not that I have words to speak I just wanna see you looking at me In a way, that states In an hour when the sun comes up We're gonna put on our shoes we're gonna shake the dust Open the door with your brand new key We won't be afraid of being sweet to ourselves Or anybody! anybody else!
Oh I miss you so very much so much in fact i gotta call you up It's not that I have news to bring I just wanna make your telephone ring So it shows and you know In a week when I fly back home We're gonna jump in bed and be all alone you'll make biscuits and I'll make tea We'll curl up close and then fall asleep To the sound of no one else no else around
And if Ive learned anything at all In this short life of mine (it's this) If you hear that joy has come to town Track it down, take a picture and tape it to your eyes
Oh I love you so very much so much in fact I'm gonna switch it up I'm gonna take this room that I built for fun And burn down the walls in front of everyone So they see, you and me Dancing in our sleepy clothes With two big smiles and a bowl of hope! That we'll drink down like ginger tea The heat will help us forget everything That you and I, that you and I have seen
And if Ive learned anything at all In this short life of mine (it's this) If you hear that joy has come to town Track it down, take a picture and tape it to your eyes.
I was reminded today by my shadow that I can do change, and I can be positive about it. Today I was so proud of her. She's having to move up into another teacher's group and no longer be with me. She had a think about it when Charlotte asked her what she thought about the change and said "okay". And when we said that we were proud of her, she had such a smile on her face. Like "yeah this is hard, but I can do it!" I don't want her to cling to me, and I don't want her to depend on me. I want her to mature and be independant and thoughtful and kind. She showed a lot of those traits today and I was proud of her and grateful for her reminder. It's funny. I've been having such a hard time of it lately with work and it's mostly to do with staff and room changes. The children keep reminding me over and over that they're the reason why I'm here and that I can do this.
Another child of mine has improved so so much in the last 2-3 weeks in being independant and emotionally mature and resourceful/inventive/creative/awesome. I do a double take sometimes. I spoke to his mum this afternoon and we're both really impressed. :) Little success stories are what make it all worth while.
I still feel like crying because I am overwhelmed at times. But I have hope that I'll be alright. I really am proud of my girl. haha She asked me why she has to move up and I explained we were getting some toddlers moving up into the Red Group and she said she's moving up like two other children who already have. I had no idea how she'd respond. I'm glad she can see the change as a natural progression that everyone has to go through... I hope I can see my changes like that too.
I'm glad I had work today. When I'm away from work, I can focus on it as being work, but when I'm there the kids make it not work and make it "I'm glad I'm with you guys" time. :)
When I'm on early shift, I like to put on classical music or gentle music in the room for the parents and children. Kate commented on my playing Geoffrey Gurrumul Yunupingu's music. It's beautiful. :)
I was listening to Triple J and heard Paul Dempsey's voice and caught the tail end of what he was saying - he was talking about depression and seeking treatment for it. Gah. I knew he was depressed, I mean, it's why I connected with Echolalia... and I know Desert Lights is a massive step up in cheerfulness compared to that 2001 album... but it's funny. I didn't put the change down to him seeking help. It's cool to know.
I spent lots of money today. I bought Guitar World Tour with the guitar, and in a couple of days, I'll buy Guitar Hero III with a guitar... ^_^;; I wasn't going to buy the World Tour but it looked too good to pass up... :P And I tell myself, I have been saving my pay for ages, it's not too bad to buy a few expensive items from time to time. haha Guitar love, here I come!!
Anyway.
I think Paul is amazing, is magic. I guess I'm a sucker for the dark and brooding look.
It feels very, very weird to be home right now. And what's more, to be home and to not have left the house yet though it's 1.30pm! I've been writing in front of my computer or outside in the sun all day. I feel like I've done nothing. I've actually typed/written around 3500 words so it's not like I've done nothing but really... I think I'm going to have to go for a walk.
Last night Jason sent me a couple of youtube videos of Jason Robert Brown music. My high school had a few music nights and a lot of the songs from this musical were used. This one makes me smile. I don't like the new Doctor Who series as much as the old ones and I don't know the whole deal behind Rose and the Doctor but one day I may.
Jason Robert Brown - I'd Give It All For You
And this here has helped me get through sitting in front of my computer for hours. haha Robot Rock. I really didn't like it the first time I heard it. I thought it was repetitive and kind of nothing special... but now I think it's awesome. Go figure?
Daft Punk - Robot Rock
I can't complain though. I have the day off from work... I'm at home working on developmental summaries/report and I'm about half way through and still going strong. I should get to about 70% and then start to think I'm getting to the difficult home stretch. And tonight I'm having people over for dinner and then Tom and I are going to see a movie. Bliss! And Wednesday is Jason's birthday party, so I'm looking forward to another night out too. :D
More Leonard Cohen. This is why people revere his music. The lyrics are poetry, are beautiful.
Leonard Cohen - The Stranger Song
It's true that all the men you knew were dealers who said they were through with dealing Every time you gave them shelter I know that kind of man It's hard to hold the hand of anyone who is reaching for the sky just to surrender who is reaching for the sky just to surrender.
Chorus 1: And then sweeping up the jokers that he left behind you find he did not leave you very much not even laughter Like any dealer he was watching for the card that is so high and wild he'll never need to deal another He was just some Joseph looking for a manger He was just some Joseph looking for a manger.
Chorus 2: And then leaning on your window sill he'll say one day you caused his will to weaken with your love and warmth and shelter And then taking from his wallet an old schedule of trains, he'll say I told you when I came I was a stranger I told you when I came I was a stranger.
But now another stranger seems to want you to ignore his dreams as though they were the burden of some other O you've seen that man before his golden arm dispatching cards but now it's rusted from the elbows to the finger And he wants to trade the game he plays for shelter Yes he wants to trade the game he knows for shelter.
Ah you hate to see another tired man lay down his hand like he was giving up the holy game of poker And while he talks his dreams to sleep you notice there's a highway that is curling up like smoke above his shoulder It is curling just like smoke above his shoulder.
You tell him to come in sit down but something makes you turn around The door is open you can't close your shelter You try the handle of the road It opens do not be afraid It's you my love, you who are the stranger It's you my love, you who are the stranger.
Well, I've been waiting, I was sure we'd meet between the trains we're waiting for I think it's time to board another Please understand, I never had a secret chart to get me to the heart of this or any other matter When he talks like this you don't know what he's after When he speaks like this, you don't know what he's after.
Let's meet tomorrow if you choose upon the shore, beneath the bridge that they are building on some endless river Then he leaves the platform for the sleeping car that's warm You realize, he's only advertising one more shelter And it comes to you, he never was a stranger And you say ok the bridge or someplace later.
I am trying to keep things in perspective. I've had a tumultuous week at work and I'm really not sure how things are going to work out and since this is real life and not the movies, there are no guarantees that it will work out in the end. But at the same time I have an amazing boyfriend, caring friends, a good church, a great place to live, I'm not struggling financially, and I have a plan for managing the things that aren't so awesome. I think all these things will mean that I'll be okay, even if I'm not in love with the idea of working as much as I will be.
I'm listening to Leonard Cohen. I don't always feel like listening to his music but this morning it's beautiful. He reminds me a little of Gerard (my old French teacher)... they look a little a like... and Gerard was a kind of bright sadness like Leonard. It would be nice to visit my old high school.
So I had a grand evening with Tom and Kat. First time I ever see 10 Things I Hate About You and the DVD skips at least 10 times from damaged sections! Cry! However, still was fun. I cooked dinner (with the help of Kat!) and Kat made dessert and it was grand. After dropping Tom off, I had this song in my head... lol Tom reminded me that I like The Beatles. :)
I want to make a list of my favourite hymns... so it's not just "oh yeah! I like that hymn" whenever we sing it Sunday and it's more like "I like these ones..."
Holy, Holy, Holy Be Thou My Vision Praise To The Lord The Almighty Christ the Lord Is Risen Today Let All Mortal Flesh Keep Silence Once to Every Man and Nation O Jesus, I Have Promised (modern tune) The God Of Abram Praise Rock of Ages (to the less popular, modern tune)
I've liked this one for a while, and it has special significance because when I saw Ret. Archbishop Harry Goodhew a few months back he mentioned it when the previous week I'd been struck by the words. It was doubly powerful hearing the words again being applied directly to my life by such a godly man.
Rev. Toplady - Rock Of Ages
Rock of Ages, cleft for me, Let me hide myself in Thee; Let the water and the blood, From Thy riven side which flowed, Be of sin the double cure, Cleanse me from its guilt and pow'r.
Not the labours of my hands Can fulfill Thy law's demands; Could my zeal no respite know, Could my tears forever flow, All for sin could not atone: Thou must save, and Thou alone.
Nothing in my hand I bring, Simply to Thy cross I cling; Naked, come to Thee for dress; Helpless, look to Thee for grace; Foul, I to the fountain fly; Wash me, Saviour, or I die.
While I draw this fleeting breath, When my eyelids close in death, When I soar to worlds unknown, See Thee on Thy judgment throne; Rock of Ages, cleft for me, Let me hide myself in Thee.
Then above the world and sin, Thro' the veil, drawn right within, I shall see Him face to face, Sing the story, saved by grace, Rock of Ages, cleft for me, Let me ever be with Thee.
Love is funny... I love my kids at work. I can point to so many moments with them and tell you "that is love" but in other things, I'm less all about love and more all about hiding. I'm sorry to all those that have felt the brunt of that. Love is a scary thing to give and accept. I don't accept praise well. I caught myself criticising myself today for being hard working and so dedicated to work and wondered at the logic of that thought... surely it's okay to be hard working? I don't need to feel bad that my actions might act as a rebuke to my coworkers. Infact, I hope it does. It's not a bad thing but somehow even my own mental praise of "yay, you're doing cool stuff at work with your kids" is not acceptable. When did good things become banned or relegated to the land of half-hearted jokes?
I've been that way for a long time. It's not a matter of being humble... it's just not accepting that I'm worth what I'm being told I am. Maybe I believe it a little, but in my head there is always a quick auto-prompt, a qualifying statement to reduce what you say by half. Or maybe I'll just say to myself, "It's what you should be doing anyway so the praise isn't special".
Life is funny like that.
That Rock Of Ages hymn has each of it's lines taken from Scripture. Check it. Could that be more nifty?
I really like this song by Sia. It's clever and cute. All that I aspire to be. :P She even whistles during the track! It couldn't be more perfect.
Sia - Academia
Today was quiet but it's like the earth just moved underneath me. I thought I'd never face my fears but here I am, doing it and not even really scared afterall. Let's see where this takes us...
Sometimes life falls into place and it's just grand. I'm trying to find music on eMusic that is available and that I want... and I was surprised to find that they have all of Sufjan Steven's music. And I then found this track....
Sufjan Stevens - Casimir Pulaski Day
I'd not listened to this song in years. I'd forgotten that I loved it. It's like being given back a dearly loved old friend. I don't know how I forgot this song... but it's nice to have it back.
Work today was non-stop, go go go! The children in the preschool room are always doing really interesting things and it's hard to keep up with them sometimes. Highlight of the day? My shadow spotting a crimson rosella in the outdoor area. Then being out the back and talking about rainbow lorikeets, rosellas, kookaburras and seeing all three during the 10 mins we were sitting out there. It's times like that that I'm really reminded that I work in a beautiful part of the world. :)
So Jason gave me a gift card for 5 free iTunes tracks. I bought:
Damien Rice - Lonelily Patrick Wolf - The Magic Position Her Space Holiday - Sleepy Tigers Noah and the Whale - 5 Years Time Brother Ali - Forest Whitiker
Thanks dude. I got some pretty awesome tracks. :)
Brother Ali - Forest Whitiker
To everyone out there, who's a little different I say damn a magazine, these are gods fingerprints You can call me ugly but cant take nothing from me I am what I am doctor you ain't gotta love me
haha, who would have thought I'd love a song like this 'un? But I do~
I am not okay... I've been not okay for a while but I've been able to get past that and continue to see the good despite all that was hard. Today I couldn't see that much good. But I remember a little of it in this song...
Sufjan Stevens - Holy, Holy, Holy
In Christ there is peace, there is joy, there is beauty, there is grace, there is forgiveness, there is cause for rejoicing and gladness and gratitude. I love hymns (not all of course) but I love this one because it reminds me of my time at CCSL and singing my heart out to God in that place. I loved praising God in that place, the whole service seemed at times set up to give such glory to God. When I was out at Seven Hills the evening service there was like that at times too. The talents of the musicians were employed to give glory to God and not for their own edification. It's a wonderful thing to see talents like that given to God and used by God. Music obviously means a lot to me.
Even when everything is hard and painful and I don't want to go on. Somehow, somehow! it's still okay. Not okay in any earthly sense... but God can see the injustices and where I feel alone, he is there. Where I think I would break, I am glued back together with his love and understanding and care. What better God could we ask for?
I just broke a bowl... a pretty blue and green patterned one. I think that's the second bowl that I've broken in that set. I want to wrap myself in bubble wrap. I'm tired of breaking and breaking things.
Mirah - Struggle
Overwhelmed. Underwhelmed. Tired, more than anything.
But Grooveshark.com is incredible. I just lined up some awesome artist's music, all songs I don't know by Carla Bruni, Rilo Kiley, The Postal Service, Sufjan Stevens, Rosie Thomas, Alexi Murdoch, Ray LaMontange, Joshua Radin, Iron and Wine...
This song was my anthem in high school. *laughs* Listening to it again, I'm still a little bit there. :P
Bright Eyes - Waste Of Paint
I have a friend, he's mostly made of pain He wakes up, drives to work and straight back home again He once cut one of my nightmares out of paper I thought it was beautiful, I put it on a record cover And I tried to tell him he had a sense Of color and composition so magnificent And he said, "Thank you, please But your flattery It's truly not becoming me Your eyes are poor, you're blind you see No beauty could have come from me I'm a waste Of breath, of space, of time"
I knew a woman, she was dignified and true Her love for her man was one of her many virtues Until one day she found out that he had lied And decided the rest of her life from that point on would be a lie She was grateful for everything that had happened And she was anxious for all that would come next But then she wept, what did you expect? In that big old house with the car she kept And, "Such is life," she often said With one day leading to the next You get a little closer to your death Which was fine with her, she never got upset And with all the days she may have left She would never clean another mess Or fold his shirts or look her best She was free To waste away alone
Last night, my brother he got drunk and drove And this cop he pulled him off to the side of the road And he said, "Officer, officer, you've got the wrong man No, no, I'm a student of medicine, a son of a banker, you don't understand" The cop said, "No one got hurt, you should be thankful And your carelessness, it is something awful And no, I can't just let you go And though your father's name is known Your decisions now are yours alone You're nothing but a stepping stone On a path To debt, to loss, to shame"
The last few months I've been living with this couple Yeah, you know the kind who buy everything in doubles Yeah, they fit together like a puzzle I love their love, and I am thankful That someone actually receives the prize that was promised By all those fairy tales that drugged us And still do me, I'm sick, lonely No laurel tree, just green envy Will my number come up eventually? Like love's some kind of lottery Where you scratch and see what's underneath It's sorry, just one cherry I'll play again, get lucky
So now I hang out down by the train's depot No, I don't ride, I just sit and watch the people there The remind me of windup cars in motion The way they spin and turn and jockey for positions And I want to scream out that it all is nonsense And their life's one track and can't they see it's pointless? But just then my knees give under me My head feels weak and suddenly It's clear to see it's not them but me Who's lost my self-identity And I hide behind these books I read While scribbling my poetry Like art could save a wretch like me With some ideal ideology That no one could hope to achieve And I'm never real, it's just a sketch of me And everything I've made is trite and cheap And a waste Of paint, of tape, of time
So I park my car down by the cathedral Where the floodlights point up at the steeples Choir practice is filling up with people I hear the sound escaping as an echo Sloping off the ceiling at an angle When the voices blend they sound like angels I hope there's some room still in the middle But when I lift my voice up now to reach them The range is too high way up in heaven So I hold my tongue, forget the song Tie my shoes, start walking off And try to just keep moving on With my broken heart and my absent God And I have no faith but it's all I want To be loved, and believe In my soul, in my soul
When will Winter be over? Something For Kate reminds me a little of Winter - their earlier music anyway. This song has one line that I love...
"and now i wake up to the sounds of video games"
It's strange, but it strikes a chord with me. Something For Kate is an old friend and like old friends, they don't always fit into who you are now but it doesn't matter. They tie into something that goes beyond the present moment and probably will always be loved.
Something For Kate - Before Butteflies Wings
This recording backs onto them playing "Back To You" also. I love that song also... and the line I love from that song?
"and I defy gravity just to get myself back to you"
I used to get really angry and my defence for that was "It's either I get angry or I get upset, would you rather me cry?". I have lost a lot of that anger. I'm left more open to being upset, and crying? I seem to have the ability to do that too. It's frustrating. It's not that things are any easier, it's just I cope with them differently.
The Lucksmiths - Take This Lying Down
I was looking for something To soothe your aching head Where did I put the recipe for breakfast in bed? Three days stright, drinking late Sleeping on the fire escape And in that nightie – a flaming sypmphony in red
From your window There’s a breeze and there are views There are trees and roofs And streets with people on their way On their way this afternoon On their way but not a clue That from the treetops they are begging you to stay
In bed today In bed today Rest assured, if you should ever feel the winter cold Your comfortability will keep you warm when you get old
I invented something new And if it’s all the same to you I’d like to take some time and try it out I’d like to try it out on you Maybe you should take this Maybe you should take this lying down...
It’s almost enough to give you something to think about
The best cure for sadness is sleep, well, for me it is at the moment.
So excited. I have another 30 tracks to download this month from eMusic! w00t! I'm already digging into Beirut. :) I now have that sublime Elephant Gun track... what else will I find? Squee~
I had a really nice day today with my kids. I was so appreciative of the calm way I could interact with them and how they were generally really respectful and attentive. I loves it. One of my shy girls is coming out of her shell by leaps and bounds recently too. To go from not talking at all, to only during some routines, to spontaneously offering information and participating at group times! I'm like "tell me more my little miss! I want to hear everything you have to say, each word is precious! I want to know what's going on in that head of yours." :D She's such a sweet little thing. Her parents speak Dutch so it's kind of hard for her as English isn't her first language, but she's just chatting so much now and it's wonderful. :)
'T' letter of the week activities were fun today... tie dying and eating tangerines. :) I don't know what we're going to do for "U". Maybe "umbrella" because it's not stopped raining... but I've kind of lost my umbrella. :/
I walked home from that Trivia Night and the moon made it all worth while (I mean, I had fun...) but the moon was just so beautiful when I stepped out of the front door. *laughs* Big and bright behind thick strips of dark cloud.
It reminded me of Dvorak's "Song To The Moon" that Tom showed me.
Silver moon upon the deep dark sky, Through the vast night pierce your rays. This sleeping world you wander by, Smiling on men's homes and ways.
Oh moon ere past you glide, tell me, Tell me, oh where does my loved one bide? Oh moon ere past you glide, tell me Tell me, oh where does my loved one bide?
Tell him, oh tell him, my silver moon, Mine are the arms that shall hold him, That between waking and sleeping he may Think of the love that enfolds him.
May between waking and sleeping Think of the love that enfolds him. Light his path far away, light his path, Tell him, oh tell him who does for him stay!
Human soul, should it dream of me, Let my memory wakened be. Moon, moon, oh do not wane, do not wane, Moon, oh moon, do not wane....
The lyrics are beautiful huh?
I like people well enough. I like going out and doing different things, but I also like the moon a whole lot. :P I like my comfortable, familiar stars. I think tomorrow I'll go for a bush walk before it gets too early and take some time out. I really don't work all that much and I shouldn't be running myself ragged when I have the chance to rest a bit.
I feel anxious, uneasy, sad. I wish I had more downtime today. I'm not looking forward to the Trivia Night. :/ I have to leave in a few minutes... I've been going through stuff for work and sorting out piles of paper. I found a CD filled with photos from my child care centre in 2006. The preschool room looked very different to how it looks now; the outdoor area too. I don't know why looking at those photos makes me sad, but it does. Maybe because it reminds me of Tina and Cathy - people who used to work in our centre - who represent a different philosophy, a different way?
Or maybe it's because I'm tired and I worked late today and fear that tomorrow will not be a restful day. I should take the day off, I think. Do the shopping I need to for work in the afternoon before church and just have the morning to sleep in and catch up with God. I don't really want to be around people. I want to curl up somewhere and sleep...
What do jelly beans, ice cream, and chocolate have in common? They're all things I consumed for dessert tonight. For serious. This tiny kitty will one day be a balloon full of puddin' love. (I really hope not and I'm not even close to that occuring so I hope I'll have time to see it coming and do something about it) But seriously, lots of sweets and ice cream is a little crazy.
Today was kinda wonderful. I got two hours of programming time off the floor to do work. I expected only one hour but you know, my boss is awesome and said she appreciates my hard work and wanted to reward me. How much do I love that? Give me recognition for my hard work and I'll work doubly hard for you. *laughs* It's really good to have something to throw your energy into and see awesome results from. And yes, I love my kids and I always get paid back in love and laughs from them for my hard work but recognition from co-workers is grand.
I had so many interesting conversations with kids today. Yesterday and today I found myself just chatting more to my kids and trying to avoid the instant come-down-really-hard-on-you approach. I asked one boy why he was standing on the chair instead of telling him to sit down and he told me it was because he wanted to feel the spikey bit inside the plastic flowers in the middle of the table. *laughs* So we had a feel of the spikey bit and he sat down... a much better way to do it. I had an awesome time yesterday with another boy using the same method. I had him sitting on his bed, chatting away with me quietly while the other kids rested nearby and I worked on things to go up on the walls. :) That was when I found out how he learnt to make farting sounds with his mouth. I thought all children just had this inbuilt skills from birth but you know, it's a little more complex than that. :P He said his big brother first showed him to make the sound on his wrist then he just did it without his wrist a little later. He was so chuffed. :P
Should I say it again? I love my kids. I heart them so bad. One of my boys was kicking the dirt near the swings, near where he'd found clay a month or two ago, and I offered the idea of digging a bit now to see if he could find more. So this meant a stack of kids came over with shovels and we actually did find clay again! lol! Love it! I used to dig for clay when I was a little dude and it was the most awesome thing to discover and play with. And we're making those all important connections - things we use can come from the earth... and hence why we need to take care of our planet.
And in the late afternoon, Megan put on Jack Johnson and I had to sing along to "Better Together". One of my kids looked at me like I was oddness... but I thought better than singing "This Old Man" till the cows come home. :P
Anyway. I like this blog. It features music, art, fashion and 'earth' issues. :) This edition's music features the band CHAIRLIFT. I'm sure you'll recognise this track. :)
I am so very lucky. Or more accurately, blessed. I woke wanting so much to spend time with God and thought I couldn't because I had a few errands to take care of, but I then realised I could do them later in the day and it would be better/easier if I did it then. *happy dance* So I got to spend a good hour and half reading and praying and I'm glad. I'm learning more and more to rely on God and come to him in my troubles, where I used to hide or burry myself in the idea that I couldn't go to God because I wasn't good enough to be listened to by him. This change has made a big impact on how I tackle life and I'm grateful for the encouragement of friends in getting to this point. I know I have a long way to go still and will need you all in keeping on going.
I like giving God 'thank offerings'. Like, "I'm so glad for how you're blessing and helping me, I want to give you something in return." It's the best kind of response to God's goodness. One time I asked God what I could give him and he asked for something I held very close to my heart, my music (the illegally downloaded stuff anyway) and this time I'd like to give him my time, the time I'd ususally spend here with my blog. I like giving things that I know are both beneficial to myself and my relationship with God, but require sacrifice on my part. I can see this blog becoming something that takes priority over God at times and I don't think that's right. haha
I was listening to this song this morning and I like this line. I don't like the almost helpless tone of the song, but I take it as a spur to encourage me to seek more than this. I love that my life has more purpose and strength and power behind it than myself and that I can change the world (not on my own on my own strength though). I do believe in something more and I want to live in that belief.
I want to change the world... instead I sleep. I want to believe in more than you and me.
Had a day up at Whale Beach with my church today. The weather was beautiful... perfect for walking on the beach. I got a few pretty shells and a crab pincer. hehe In the morning we had an encouraging/real talk about finding our place in the body of Christ/the Church as an essential but often overlooked aspect of Christianity.
We also watched The Mission, a full-on movie about a group of Jesuits who converted the native Indians in southern Spain and the way the church let them down. Rome allowed the fear of political backlash to abandon those at the mission to Portugal invasion. It was kind of a mixed message. Definately not as inspiring as the first talk but I think the aim was to show how powerful Christ can be and how damaging it can be when we don't work together as a body. Still... the verses that made me want to come today are powerful and I want to see the church transformed by it:
It was he who gave some to be apostles, some to be prophets, some to be evangelists, and some to be pastors and teachers, to prepare God's people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.
Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of men in their deceitful scheming. Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into him who is the Head, that is, Christ. From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work.
(Ephesians 4:11-16)
Though I also have to say, going to the beach with a boy you like is a pretty grand thing. I love running along the sand until you're out of breath. The waves were so blue, then turned turquoise/green in the middle as the sun lit it up from behind before it crashed into white foam. Tres belle. :) Later in the day Tessa showed me a huge love heart that she made in the sand for Tom and I. It was so 'aww'!
I'm feeling so socially exhausted though. Being around people is really tiring. I went for a walk for part of the day and just had some alone time. It's a challenging thing to balance. I think I must be an introvert...
Anyway. Long weekend. :) Looking forward to church tomorrow. Jason and Feng were all "table tennis! Come to church early!" so there's that... and it would be cool to play against Tess and Emilia with Tom too. I also want to go shopping for things I need for work. I love being excited about special activities I have planned for the upcoming week. I also love the feeling of not having a million things to catch up on. hehe God has been really looking out for me these past few weeks with work. It's really incredible how he moves and responds so well to our needs. :)
Music is like a drug. The more I get, the more I need it and the so the hits of new music have to keep coming faster. So I am going to my supplier - Art of the Mix - and this is what I've found. I like Rogue Wave. I want more of their music. I bought Catform because I love it so much already...
So I want to make a mixed CD with all the fun, upbeat Beatles tracks that make you dance. I'm not going to do it all now... but I'll come back and edit this post with additions over the next day or so. :)
Another fitting song. Not that it was sunny today but it was a good day and good days make their own sunshine. :) Plus, all that stuff about being in love, pretty wonderfully true.
The Beatles - Good Day Sunshine
Good day sunshine Good day sunshine Good day sunshine
I need to laugh, and when the sun is out I've got something I can laugh about I feel good, in a special way I'm in love and it's a sunny day
Good day sunshine Good day sunshine Good day sunshine
We take a walk, the sun is shining down Burns my feet as they touch the ground
Good day sunshine Good day sunshine Good day sunshine
Then we lie beneath a shady tree I love her and she's loving me She feels good, she know she's looking fine I'm so proud to know that she is mine
Good day sunshine Good day sunshine Good day sunshine Good day sunshine Good day sunshine Good day sunshine Good day sunshine Good day sunshine
Hi, Regina has a new song - Eet. I'm not sure if it's eet as 'eat' or 'it' or something else. Either way, it's the second track released from her upcoming new album to be released June 23rd. I love Regina's music but I'm not falling out of my chair in love with the two tracks released so far. Regardless, I'm expecting good things from the rest of her music.
