Quit While You're Ahead

So I had a good conversation with a friend this morning... we seemed to be able to resolve our differences and even end on a pretty positive note. Mostly because he knows me so well and can say things like "quit while you're ahead" - before I put my foot in it and say the wrong thing and spoil it. :P

I feel unsettled... I am doing what I can, but I could do more? More and more I see that there are areas in my life that I need to work on - and not just in short bursts, but consistently over time. I'm a little afraid... afraid that I picked my moment to fight for the right things a little late... but I'm still here and good things are still happening. I feel as though I'm going to have to work a lot harder to get there now though, which makes sense. But I'm not alone...


I was listening to music while waiting for the train this morning and Mirah struck a chord with me... And even more so now that I'm at home and can look up the lyrics. They're not happy lyrics and I'm not saying 'hey, that's me' but this line, My trouble with everything always is nothing's just right niggles at me. I feel that way about work... when things are not ordered/set up and I have a long mental list of things to do I can't focus on the tasks at hand. I feel bogged down. That's why I go in on weekends and set things up for the Monday/week ahead.



Mirah - You've Gone Away Enough

If the light takes you in will you know where you've been all this time
At the edge of a cliff you could almost just slip down the side
When there's so much to do don't you wish you could make up your mind?
But it know it's elusive, it grows and it burns you inside

With my eyes mostly closed like a person who knows how to drown
I'll squint at the sun and my shoulders will pray for the ground
Let's throw something over, imagine it's us falling down
And thinking of death we will watch without making a sound

But it's just the way you are you don't have to be afraid
The way you look at the stars and how you think that they were made
The motion will never stop turning the night into the day
You've gone away enough when will you decide to stay

My trouble with everything always is nothing's just right
Just to figure out nothing could keep you awake half the night
Not to know what you want is a terrible thing you should fight
You just suffer for the face of the dark while you wait for the light



So peace has escaped my grasp a little this week... I'm waiting for it to return home. Like a dove to the branches in my tree... hehe

Cathrine