I Know You Are, But What Am I?

I'm home again. The Philippines was incredible. I met my mum's family for the first time. I met my uncles... one of them in particular is really into music. He sang in choirs from primary school right through to university and he bought me three CDs of a Filipino singer he likes. Her name is Regine Velasquez. :) I looked at him and felt a sort of kinship that I did not expect to experience. This is what it is to have family! He really took care of mum and I too, taking us out almost every day. He took us to dinner and bought us ice creams. We went for walks at night around the local parks - a whole truck load of us (we often travelled in groups of 10+ people). He took mum and I to the night markets and to their huge malls (SM! - Super Mall)!

I also met loads of cousins and great aunts and uncles (I have around 24). We sang karaoke at every party and danced to the same pop songs until I was nearly destroyed by them - Nobody But You, I Got A Feeling, Poker Face, etc. It was fun, but crazy! I spent so much time around people that I nearly lost myself. I became so much more outgoing and brave. I really didn't get as much time as I'd hoped to spend in bible reading and prayer. I was almost never alone!

I came home and have found myself stronger for the time spent away. I feel more confident in my decisions. Is it because I know better who I am? :) I also now have a deeper understanding of where my mum comes from and why she thinks and acts the way she does. I saw lots of things in her that I admire and love about her. She's naturally generous and is able to at times say "this is what God has done for me" without self-consciousness. It surprises me, when her faith shows it's face. It suprises me when mum lets go of her fear of spending money and sees how she is able to help and do good and does it cheerfully.

And I came home to Tom. Two weeks away may seem like a short amount of time in the grand scheme of things but it's funny what time can do. Not having him there showed me even more how much I love him being a part of my life. I value so much what we have. Since my return I've had so much fun with him, sharing our excitement and passion for life/art/God. I am filled to the brim. I feel like I'm home in so many senses of the word. I feel very lucky. :)

So I spent some time this afternoon buying music... I got a $20 iTunes gift card in my bible study secret santa and I bought this song. It's an instrumental piece I found a long time ago and had forgotten about. I quite like the video made to go with it.


Mogwai - I Know You Are, But What Am I?





I'm also planning to pack up and move. I asked Tom for a subdomain from his shupface website and I have hopes that it'll be up in a week or two. It'll cover more topics than music including - nature, art and poetry also. :)

See you 'round,

Cathrine