Sleepy Tigers

I had a crazy dream - there was a white tiger in it.



Her Space Holiday - Sleepy Tigers




Oh I like you so very much so much in fact I gotta wake you up
It's not that I have words to speak
I just wanna see you looking at me
In a way, that states
In an hour when the sun comes up
We're gonna put on our shoes we're gonna shake the dust
Open the door with your brand new key
We won't be afraid of being sweet
to ourselves
Or anybody! anybody else!

Oh I miss you so very much so much in fact i gotta call you up
It's not that I have news to bring
I just wanna make your telephone ring
So it shows and you know
In a week when I fly back home
We're gonna jump in bed and be all alone
you'll make biscuits and I'll make tea
We'll curl up close and then fall asleep
To the sound of no one else no else around

And if Ive learned anything at all
In this short life of mine (it's this)
If you hear that joy has come to town
Track it down, take a picture and tape it to your eyes

Oh I love you so very much so much in fact I'm gonna switch it up
I'm gonna take this room that I built for fun
And burn down the walls in front of everyone
So they see, you and me
Dancing in our sleepy clothes
With two big smiles and a bowl of hope!
That we'll drink down like ginger tea
The heat will help us forget everything
That you and I, that you and I have seen

And if Ive learned anything at all
In this short life of mine (it's this)
If you hear that joy has come to town
Track it down, take a picture and tape it to your eyes.



Bon nuit,

Cathrine

Wiyathul

I was reminded today by my shadow that I can do change, and I can be positive about it. Today I was so proud of her. She's having to move up into another teacher's group and no longer be with me. She had a think about it when Charlotte asked her what she thought about the change and said "okay". And when we said that we were proud of her, she had such a smile on her face. Like "yeah this is hard, but I can do it!" I don't want her to cling to me, and I don't want her to depend on me. I want her to mature and be independant and thoughtful and kind. She showed a lot of those traits today and I was proud of her and grateful for her reminder. It's funny. I've been having such a hard time of it lately with work and it's mostly to do with staff and room changes. The children keep reminding me over and over that they're the reason why I'm here and that I can do this.

Another child of mine has improved so so much in the last 2-3 weeks in being independant and emotionally mature and resourceful/inventive/creative/awesome. I do a double take sometimes. I spoke to his mum this afternoon and we're both really impressed. :) Little success stories are what make it all worth while.


I still feel like crying because I am overwhelmed at times. But I have hope that I'll be alright. I really am proud of my girl. haha She asked me why she has to move up and I explained we were getting some toddlers moving up into the Red Group and she said she's moving up like two other children who already have. I had no idea how she'd respond. I'm glad she can see the change as a natural progression that everyone has to go through... I hope I can see my changes like that too.


I'm glad I had work today. When I'm away from work, I can focus on it as being work, but when I'm there the kids make it not work and make it "I'm glad I'm with you guys" time. :)


When I'm on early shift, I like to put on classical music or gentle music in the room for the parents and children. Kate commented on my playing Geoffrey Gurrumul Yunupingu's music. It's beautiful. :)



Geoffrey Gurrumul Yunupingu - Wiyathul




:)

Cathrine

Paul Dempsey

I was listening to Triple J and heard Paul Dempsey's voice and caught the tail end of what he was saying - he was talking about depression and seeking treatment for it. Gah. I knew he was depressed, I mean, it's why I connected with Echolalia... and I know Desert Lights is a massive step up in cheerfulness compared to that 2001 album... but it's funny. I didn't put the change down to him seeking help. It's cool to know.


I spent lots of money today. I bought Guitar World Tour with the guitar, and in a couple of days, I'll buy Guitar Hero III with a guitar... ^_^;; I wasn't going to buy the World Tour but it looked too good to pass up... :P And I tell myself, I have been saving my pay for ages, it's not too bad to buy a few expensive items from time to time. haha Guitar love, here I come!!


Anyway.

I think Paul is amazing, is magic. I guess I'm a sucker for the dark and brooding look.


Paul Dempsey - Monsters




Love and pumpkins,

Cathrine

Home During The Day - Robot Rock

It feels very, very weird to be home right now. And what's more, to be home and to not have left the house yet though it's 1.30pm! I've been writing in front of my computer or outside in the sun all day. I feel like I've done nothing. I've actually typed/written around 3500 words so it's not like I've done nothing but really... I think I'm going to have to go for a walk.

Last night Jason sent me a couple of youtube videos of Jason Robert Brown music. My high school had a few music nights and a lot of the songs from this musical were used. This one makes me smile. I don't like the new Doctor Who series as much as the old ones and I don't know the whole deal behind Rose and the Doctor but one day I may.


Jason Robert Brown - I'd Give It All For You





And this here has helped me get through sitting in front of my computer for hours. haha Robot Rock. I really didn't like it the first time I heard it. I thought it was repetitive and kind of nothing special... but now I think it's awesome. Go figure?



Daft Punk - Robot Rock





I can't complain though. I have the day off from work... I'm at home working on developmental summaries/report and I'm about half way through and still going strong. I should get to about 70% and then start to think I'm getting to the difficult home stretch. And tonight I'm having people over for dinner and then Tom and I are going to see a movie. Bliss! And Wednesday is Jason's birthday party, so I'm looking forward to another night out too. :D

Lucky me,

Cathrine

The Stranger Song

More Leonard Cohen. This is why people revere his music. The lyrics are poetry, are beautiful.



Leonard Cohen - The Stranger Song





It's true that all the men you knew were dealers
who said they were through with dealing
Every time you gave them shelter
I know that kind of man
It's hard to hold the hand of anyone
who is reaching for the sky just to surrender
who is reaching for the sky just to surrender.

Chorus 1:
And then sweeping up the jokers that he left behind
you find he did not leave you very much not even laughter
Like any dealer he was watching for the card that is so high and wild
he'll never need to deal another
He was just some Joseph looking for a manger
He was just some Joseph looking for a manger.

Chorus 2:
And then leaning on your window sill
he'll say one day you caused his will
to weaken with your love and warmth and shelter
And then taking from his wallet
an old schedule of trains, he'll say
I told you when I came I was a stranger
I told you when I came I was a stranger.

But now another stranger seems
to want you to ignore his dreams
as though they were the burden of some other
O you've seen that man before
his golden arm dispatching cards
but now it's rusted from the elbows to the finger
And he wants to trade the game he plays for shelter
Yes he wants to trade the game he knows for shelter.

Ah you hate to see another tired man
lay down his hand
like he was giving up the holy game of poker
And while he talks his dreams to sleep
you notice there's a highway
that is curling up like smoke above his shoulder
It is curling just like smoke above his shoulder.

You tell him to come in sit down
but something makes you turn around
The door is open you can't close your shelter
You try the handle of the road
It opens do not be afraid
It's you my love, you who are the stranger
It's you my love, you who are the stranger.

Well, I've been waiting, I was sure
we'd meet between the trains we're waiting for
I think it's time to board another
Please understand, I never had a secret chart
to get me to the heart of this
or any other matter
When he talks like this
you don't know what he's after
When he speaks like this,
you don't know what he's after.

Let's meet tomorrow if you choose
upon the shore, beneath the bridge
that they are building on some endless river
Then he leaves the platform
for the sleeping car that's warm
You realize, he's only advertising one more shelter
And it comes to you, he never was a stranger
And you say ok the bridge or someplace later.

Chorus 1

Chorus 2

I told you when I came I was a stranger.




I'm going for a run, be back later...

Cathrine